Confessions of a messed up mummy

My story

2011-11-20T08:06:00.001-08:00

This is my story... What's yours?

In awe

2011-09-21T08:16:00.001-07:00

I have been blog jumping lately n it amazes me how many ppl are livin interesting lives.
I, however, am living on a routine. Wake up, shower, gets adams breakfast ready, send them to the nursery, go to work, come home from work, pick them up, play with them n put them to sleep.
Well this happens every weekday n on friday, hubby comes back from singapore for the weekend.
N this will go on, insyaAllah for 6 months.
In between overloading workload, running around trying to take care of 2 boys, getting my professional registration on the way n other matters, i am left with little or no time for myself.
I've been hearing the term supermak or overprotective mak. To me im just trying to be a surviving mak.
I take this all in stride. Put on a happy face n live my day to day life.
Am i tired? Hell yeah. Can i get thru this? Only time will tell.
I need stability in life. But if this is what i have to go thru in order to achieve it, ill do it. Ill sacrifice everything in order to get the stability that i deserve.
But for now, im on a quest of the surviving mak.
I miss my home
I miss my complete family
I miss my messy bed...

dear boys...

2011-06-13T02:11:00.000-07:00

to my three boys...

it's been a while since i sat down n thought about nothing. it seems that time goes by so fast that i'm not able to enjoy every single one of your companies. but always know that you guys are always on my mind.

to the eldest boy, my hubby a.k.a mr daddy,
you've given me two wonderful albeit challenging boys. when i look at them i see us as a whole unit. n however messed up it might be, it works for us. n for allllll the time i expect you to do things n babble n go on my hormonal rage, you were always there to cool me down, and also to make me angry again :p
for everything we've been thru, i cherish everything and expect a whole lifetime of challenging and happy times with you.

to my first son, adam danish a.k.a adam gedik a.k.a adam,
yes, me and you we are one of a kind. that's why when we're close we're really close. and when we're arguing... well, let's just say there's daddy to clear the tension :p you are stubborn, hot headed and sometimes a little too smart for comfort. your antique never fails to amuse me. just one word of wisdom, when you play and mess up the house, please clean it up again. or i will call to monkey to bite you. ;) muhammad adam danish, just like your brother, both of you have my love, attention and devotion before you were ever born into this world. i love you two.

to my second son, aariz danish, a.k.a bob, aariz wong, dompot and many other names that i can't even remember at the moment. you came out at 3.31kg and like any expected 2nd child, you were stubborn from the get go. labour with you took almost 24 hours! and just like your brother, everything changed when you came into our life. all our priorities were put aside to concentrate on you. on making sure that your brother didn't make you into his own ball. Alhamdulillah to Allah, the transition went superbly (got such word?) and every day all my tired and worries at word is cleared the moment i see your face. can't wait for you to bond with your brother and give more headache to mummy and daddy.

every once in a while, i would stop and evaluate my life. pause if for a moment if i could, just to cherish all the things that i have been blessed with. the truth is, i am truly blessed. i may complain once in a while (my husband might beg to differ) but i love all the challenges and all the gifts that i have in life.

till my next post (God knows when), xox.

alhamdulillah...

biggest pet peeve

2010-11-10T02:09:00.000-08:00

Someone invading my personal space.
I may be messy n disorganized, but last I check, it's my table, not yours!
So get ur grubby paws of my space n get lost!
The least u can do is ask for permission...
Haih... Whatever happens to common courtesy?

my wish list! (for baby No. 2)

2010-11-07T19:59:00.000-08:00

here ye here ye...
this post is dedicated to my besties and my hubby.
hahaha...

and also to myself so dat i dun kelam kabut when the time comes...

these are the things i still need for the new bub.

1. WARDROBE!
adam's wardrobe dah penuh and i need a new one so that i can unpack adam's old things that can be reused for the new baby...

2. HIS NAME!
believe it or not, we haven't settled on a name yet, or even discussed properly on this matter. opinions are welcomed...

3. TOWELS!
one thing yg can't be recycled from his brother... so far i've only bought one n i think i need to get at least 2 more.

believe it or not... those are the only things that i can think of... other small things include...

4. pacifier
5. cotton balls
6. glass bottles - chicco & pigeon

ok nanti pikir lagi...

my mind starts moving when everyone else is asleep...

2010-10-25T08:35:00.000-07:00

it's almost midnight, my boy sleeping soundly beside me, n his daddy sleeping soundly too (well, i hope he is asleep) in another bed in Langkawi..
it's been a lil more than a month now since i've changed my status to a 'weekend wife' and what started to be a very lethargic change of routine has somewhat become a new routine for me.
don't get me wrong, it's still very lethargic, especially with my baby bump growing every single hour, me craving for food every waking second and having a little boy throwing tantrums once in a while can get the most of me, especially since i'm running around all over the place.
but...
i can say that i am lucky enough to be able to find the silver lining...
i start to look at the bigger picture and not worry so much about the little things in life...
i appreciate my marriage even more...
i appreciate my life even more..
oh, n i get treated like a queen everytime hubby comes back from Langkawi...
if this is what i have to live with in order for my family to get what we have all been wishing for, then so be it.
oh, as an update to myself, we're having another boy! yay! another hero for me! EDD is still end Jan but my gynae tells me to get myself ready around mid-Jan.
Mid-Jan? haha i'm already starting to buy things for the new bub... :P
what else... oh hubby received his long overdue bonus & increment... Alhamdulillah... kesian tgk die working so hard... finally it's all paying off!
my lil adam is now my very own boombox, if he's not singing, he's dancing and shouting, never a dull moment in mummy's life.
and as for me, i'm hanging in there... no major complaints.
of coz me being a human being always wanting more... but who isn't?
i have 2 meetings and a list of things to do at work this week so it's definitely not something i'm lookin forward to but at least at the end of the week i'm getting my pay! shopping lagik... :)
i have my eyes on a shopping bag but i still think i can resist the temptation...
ok ok tido time before i continue thinking...
good nite everyone....
daddy n adam, i love u two!
n lil baby in the tummy, i love u too!

let me tell you something about the men in my life...

2010-08-17T22:34:00.000-07:00

these are the men in my life, the people who i wake up to, and sleep next to...

Exhibit A: Mohd Syazwan (the husband)

Always the disciplinarian, but bendable if you know the right buttons to push. This morning, he knew that i didn't have enough sleep and when i woke up to get Adam's things ready for taska, he had washed all the bottles n made Adam's breakfast. whilst i have already have an amazing family, i'm also extremely blessed to have great in-laws as i have heard some stories about horror in-laws.

Exhibit B: Muhammad Adam Danish (the son)

Cheeky, naughty, makes you want to bite him every single second, attentive, lasak. Sometimes when i look into his eyes, i feel a little sad, not knowing how he will react to having another little brother/sister. but i guess that's our job as parents to make sure that he knows that he is still loved the same. his smile is enough to light up anyone's day and while i can't wait for him to fall asleep, i keep on missing him even though he's sleeping right next to me.

there's the ever so famous quote of men: can't live with them, can't live without them. well, for me, it's my men, can't live without them.

love you both!

randomness

2010-08-10T20:44:00.000-07:00

it's been berabad kot since i last write... something other than work related craps.
it's the holy month of Ramadhan again. it's August! and so many things have been happening this year...
for example, i am pregnant with our second child.
n other exciting things which unfortunately my mind can not seem to remember at this point in time.
i've been having a few random thoughts in my head lately.

like yesterday while i was driving i remembered how i believed when someone told me that Ziana Zain cried in one performance because everyone found out that her name is Roziana. So macam tak glamour sbb tu la dia nangis. and i believed it.

Or how my sister was telling me if you would want someone to agree with you, your shadow will do a better job at it.

while this is so true, i wonder why i don't live by it. i should. because it will eliminate so many unnecessary headaches in my life.

Sure, im not perfect, but so isnt everyone else. so from now on, i'm gonna try not to expect everyone to agree with me and accept life as it is. i may not be liked by everyone but at least i have my close friends and families who are well, let's face it... stuck with me! ha ha!

anyways, happy ramadhan to everyone! here's hoping that we will appreciate the little things that we often take for granted and cherish it forever.

xoxo!

in love again...

2010-05-19T02:22:00.000-07:00

I’ve been doing some soul searching lately, quietly tho.
One question that has been lingering around in my mind, if I am so in touch or emotional, why do I come out as someone strong… or garang, even?
If I was opinionated, it would at least make it okay.
I spend my whole life agreeing… (my husband might beg to differ) but the only person I’d argue with is the one closest to me, my husband…
Kesian… of course. Why do we take out all our rage on the closest to us? Padahal they’ve always been there for us, unconditionally…
So… in case I never have the guts to say this… I’ll write it out. I’m falling in love… with my husband, who takes every bit of me, the good and the bad… n while he may bebel or whatever, at least he accepts me the way I am… which is the most important thing to me, also, it helps that he is still good looking even with the extra belly.
I’m also falling in love with my boy, Adam Danish. Looking at him sleep yesterday made me realize how big he has become, he may only one year plus, but soon he’ll be 5 years old, then 10! Then 20! My brain can only hold so much memories, but at least I have a heart to remind me constantly the amount of love and pride a child can give to someone.
Oh… I also love Uncle Kracker’s lyrics to the song SMILE… I hate talented people! No fair!

perseverance

2010-05-17T21:23:00.000-07:00

yesterday was the first day of the AirAsia zero seat promotion and for the first time, hubby and i sat in front of the pc (1 pc and a laptop actually) to get the best deal.
we must have done the search more than 10 times, entered the details more than gazillionth time and all we get is "sorry, the seats that you have booked is no longer available"
i remember hubby and i cursed repeatedly, one after another, whilst Adam would occasionally be disturbed from his sleep as we were letting out our frustrations at each other.
We were at the fourth hour and i remembered telling myself, im not going to sleep!
but also "this will be the last try and i will give up."

when the page refreshed and the word CONFIRM was written on it, i had to blink a few times... i thought i was so sleepy that i dreamed about it. but i wasn't. and it's true.

YAY! i'm going to Bandung!
good news is that we're going in another 11 months!
so i have ample time to save!

*shopping... weeee*

blahhh

2010-05-06T10:24:00.001-07:00

HANG IN THERE BABE!!!

Look what's happening to me...

Juggling everything (Exhibit A)

+ trying to reach the almost impossible (Exhibit B)

= exhibit C! haha

but you know what??

I'm just glad i have 2 ppl in my life that understands my exhibit Cness!

Love you two long time!

reminiscing happy moments...

2010-05-06T00:43:00.000-07:00

saya bosan. penat. stressed. n ngantok.
somehow pictures always seem to cheer me up.

enjoy! (sorry gambar in merepek order)... coz i malas nk susun... hahaha

thanks AirAsiaX for the cheap flight!

our main photographer on the trip: Bella

sgt happy to see shops!

say WHAT mummy???

adam's first food in Gold Coast... cheezy garlic roll thingy... sedap pls, mummy n auntie die yg cilok! sorry baby...

my baby boy

anak mummy kepenatan, sorry lah, daddy awk tu gile tours...

in front of the aquaduck... we almost didnt make it!

randomness

QDeck

in front of QDeck... adam baru tido n no, i am not pregnant... YET! haha

my measely attempt at holding him up... aiyah, no upper body strength langsung!

photo OP!

kami always kelaparan

me & adam danish (mcm kimora tak? muke tembam, leher berlipat2... see the resemblance? hahaha)

the crab master yg HOTTTT

adam dgn sunnies mamaya yg terkorban a few days later
antara dayang2 yg menjaga Adam. Thanks again nadia & bella kasi caca & abg honeymoon... even sekali sekala... sangatlah penting! he he he

shopping for adam's rapper dude shoesss

i love cheap stuff!
the pic speaks for itself! @ carrera market

adam has his own brand of water!

kami kelaparan kerana husband saya bangunkan kami pada pukul 7 pagi dan kene keluar cepat2... kene on-time. haih, ade warden la plak...

multi talented musician

adam's first ride @ dreamworld... blue skiddo

Adam's second ride @ dreamworld: merry go round

adam's third ride @ dreamworld: circling swings!

WIPEOUT!
after this ride, daddy & nadia tersentap sbb mabok! teros carik makan! :s

crocodile dundee

tak naik ride, amik gambar pon cukup lah
muke bella in her own words: rase mcm nak mati! but props to her coz none of us was brave enough to join her

wiggleworld

shrek4d @ movieworld

kami mmg camwhores... :D

SMILE!!!

my solace...

2010-05-05T21:19:00.000-07:00

whilst ur daddy may be an occasional idiot (oops!), thank God he has you to help me cool down =)

the circle of life...

2010-04-30T00:24:00.000-07:00

i remember just a few years ago, i was able to go out with a tight tee on me and looked damn hot... now, even with a girdle, ppl ask me if i'm pregnant!!!

i used to laugh until i cried, now i cried until i laughed!

i had amazing gorgeous EXPENSIVE shoes, now they're all kept to collect dust as i can't fit in them anymore!

i'd be able to eat crap and still look good, now all the craps are going either to my tummy, thighs or double chin!

but...

now, though i have debts, i have my own home.
and a husband... and not to forget, my bundle of joy who never fails to make me smile.
that may not seem like much.. but it's enough to get me through the cruel circle of life (well, cruel to my body lah)

mellow me...

2010-04-09T09:44:00.000-07:00

i've been extremely mellow today..
if u don't believe me, ask Aishah...
something thats supposed to be funny got me tearing up...
and ive been doing quite a few thinking lately...
i don't necessarily like to think...
thinking leads to procrastinating...
haih...
see i'm still thinking...
if it wasn't for my baby's very light sleep, i'd prolly still be thinking
but i gotta switch off my laptop, and join my boy on the mattress.
i miss home...
i miss my hubby..
but he's coming home tomorrow...
i wonder if i could ask him to bring me out shopping...
OMG Woman! Stop thinking.

Aishah, esok buat hairband...
we need to figure out a way to get rich soon...
so u can get ur iPhone... and i can pay off my debts...
Good night World...
I LOVE YOU
(What the?!!???)

we all gotta start from somewhere...

2010-04-09T08:40:00.000-07:00

as i spent the remainder of the night being a couch potato in my parent's EXTREMELY COMFORTABLE state-of-the-art (ok, exxagerating here) lazyboy, I wondered why hubby and i didn't get the ciplak and a fraction of the real lazyboy price while we were furniture hunting.

These are my answers:

1. They're HUGE
2. They take up space
3. They're fake
4. They're HUGE (which brings me to the conclusion that my house is small)

Throughout my life, i can safely say that i am blessed, though don't get me wrong, i do crave for the extra perks in life. Having been given an opportunity to study abroad, to understand people... and to feel what it's like to stand on my own two feet. whilst i may not enjoy every second of it, i do appreciate the chance i had to experience all this.

so, i guess what i'm trying to say here, is that firstly, i didn't buy that lazyboy because i wanted the original with the 10 year guarantee just because i didn't want to settle for a second/or third even grade version of the real deal, secondly, because my house IS small, and that's only because i have to start from the bottom... from the real means that i have and thirdly, why couldn't all these thoughts come to me at a more appropriate time? not at midnite!

i believe im not done thinking... well, we'll see...

~im thankful for my resources, my family which i was born into, my friends and most importantly, my own little family that we made~

Thank you Allah for blessing me. Amin... ;)

where are all my clothes?!???

2010-03-24T16:36:00.000-07:00

thursday mornings are usually easy for me...
why? because it's uniform day!
but not this thursday?
why? u may ask again...
because some stupid idiot decided to conjure up a last minute 2 and a half HOURS of meeting this morning.
so i have to find something to wear!
n seeing that most of my work clothes are somewhere else sent for ironing...
my options are VERY LIMITED!!!
Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

love? hate?

2010-03-04T20:53:00.000-08:00

My love hate relationship with patience and positivity started early this year when I promised myself that ill try to master these traits.
However, it's bloody hard to do it when everything around you cries havoc.
It's taking all my strength and willpower (ade ke?) Not to scream and throw everything back on the floor.
Wish me luck!

merapu sebelum time tido...

2010-03-02T07:02:00.001-08:00

when i came home today at around 9pm, i expected that my son would be asleep.
and yes he was, sleeping soundly in my bedroom, adorable tucked in his blue blankie bought by his Grandmama...
you see.. i personally feel as if it has been ages since i went back to my own home, my husband has been away since Sunday. and i have an unbelievably busy week ahead, hence the coming home late.
however, i was surprisingly calm.
i went about my business.
even had time to surf.
missed my hubby.
played with my son.
and got things ready.
i wonder, what did i do differently this time? how did i manage to be so calm?
(yes, i did express my uneasiness to my friends but i think i was still calm, no screaming... yet)
is it my PMS reaction, only total opposite from my normal reaction?
or have i finally matured?
erm... maybe not since i sung stupid songs at work...
or worse! have i gotten so stressed before that i am now insane???

and then! it hit me!

my newest purchase, Blackberry Bold 9700.

No people, it's not about the materiality of the item.

It's about how much simpler my life is... thanks to it.

Some may think i'm exaggerating this, but for me, this is true. thanks to their cheap unlimited data plan, i was able to be online 24/7, and since my bestie has a blackberry, we were able to chat constantly.
Who could believe this one small gadget has given me so much balance.
BB has forced my husband to be on Facebook (OMG finally)
BB gave me a way to share my life with my family and friends
BB gave me my bestie back.
BB is so user friendly that a buta IT person like me could easily maneuver around (also kudos to my bb tutorial lecturer, aishah (bukan nama sebenar)) inside joke, sila ignore...
BB has given me renewed hope in gadgets
BB reminds me of my every appointment.
BB has given me music, and video!
you know wat, i know my husband will be the first one to tell me that other phones do the same thing too... maybe. but not for me...

maybe it's the feeling of waiting... the anticipation and finally being able to have it. gives me the sense of fulfillment. gives me a glimmer of hope that maybe i'm not so messed up after all.

p/s: here i go kissing adam good nite and getting a shut eye of my own. it's not often that i get to feel this way, so i better cherish it before it's gone. Who knows, i mite be crazy tomorrow... TUNE IN to find out!

p/p/s: adie, nice to finally meet u! and also, gambar teddy tu cute, tapi it hardly counts as one entry! :p

My adorable niece...

2010-03-02T06:30:00.000-08:00

This is what happens when you give a mini aquarium to Qeesh.
She is truly the fish whisperer!

=)

2010-02-21T18:03:00.000-08:00

i'm sure any normal human being will have this song to relate to one way or another...

SMILE by the Glee Cast

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...

If you smile
With your pain and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through
If you just...

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...

That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

Tudungsss!

2010-02-17T19:57:00.001-08:00

Thanks to Gadis2 MF for graciously modelling my items!!!

Square tudungs are available upon request! Other colours are available too!!!

Miss Khartena models! Mahal tuu... :D

Code: 2001
Price: RM60

Code: 2012
Price: RM50 (SOLD)

Code: 2013
Price: RM50 (SOLD)

Code: 2003
Price: RM60
Other colours: White

Code: 2014
Price: RM50 (SOLD)
Other colours: Grey (SOLD)

Code: 2008
Price: RM60
Other colours: Creme (as per most top photo)

Code: 2015
Price: RM50

Code: 2004
Price: RM40
Other colours: Grey (SOLD), Purple (SOLD), Army Green (SOLD)

Code: 2028 (SOLD)
Price: RM40
Other colours: black with blue flowers (SOLD)

Code: 2030
Price: RM40
Other colours: Grey (SOLD)

Topssss galore...

2010-02-17T19:25:00.000-08:00

Code: 1003
Price: RM115 (SOLD)

Code: 1015
Price: RM90

Code: 1004 (SOLD) & 1008 (SOLD)
Price: RM125

Code: 1016
Price: RM90 (SOLD)

Code: 1010
Price: RM100 (SOLD)

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Price: RM125 (SOLD)

Code: 1018
Price: RM65
(also comes in Black (SOLD) - 1 more available, Navy Blue and Light Brown)

Code: 1005
Price: RM125 (SOLD)

Code: 1017
Price: RM90

Code: 1014
Price: RM100 (SOLD)

Code: 1011
Price: RM100 (SOLD)

photo of the day!

2010-02-09T06:51:00.000-08:00

the men in my life enjoying dinner @ Sakae Sushi... =)

me & my old boyfriend...

2010-02-09T06:43:00.000-08:00

after two years of being married, i FINALLY got one on one time with my old boyfriend...
how lucky is it that my hubby is out of town?
i'm able to spend quality one on one time with my old boyfriend.
my one and only...
HP Pavillion Entertainment PC!
my lappy toppy.
my favourite companion every night before i go to sleep.
my ticket to freedom.
my connection to the outside world.
i'm sorry i didn't have control over your temporary owner, a.k.a. my husband, who flooded you with stupid documents and viruses and slowed you down.
until i bought him his new laptop and he ABANDONED you!
until u merajuk-ed with me and refused to switch on.
now u're brand new, reformatted and all backed up.
awan's in Langkawi.
adam's sound asleep.
just me... and my lappy!

good nite...

if only...

2010-01-20T23:39:00.000-08:00

if i could turn back time, i'd...

tell myself at 5, i did a good job convincing my parents that i didn't need to go to kindergarden!

tell myself at 6, to apologize to the little boy who got scolded because i cried and told the teachers that boy made me cry!

tell myself at 7, the next time i try to runaway from school, i should probably remember to bring my bags wimme!

tell myself at 10, to sing as much as i can as i WAS a good singer i was! well, that ship has sailed now.

tell myself at 12, it's not camping if you sleep on a bunch of desks in the classroom!

tell myself at 13, i shouldn't be joining an all girls school just because i haven't had my period and was worried the guys could see when i "bocor-ed"

tell meself at 14, short tempurung hair is SO NOT COOL!

tell meself at 15, not to play during PMR!

tell meself at 16, gatalness will get you nowhere... exhibit A: TEKO!

tell meself at 17, not to expect too much of growing up. oh, and to stop skipping study groups by fleeing to Midvalley.

tell meself at 18, BOYS ARE MEAN!

tell myself at 19, be careful of my homemate~

tell meself at 20, to stop fighting with my boyfriend, he's gonna be ur husband, u know... u MAY WANT to think that through... :p

tell myself at 21, third year in university is the BEST YEAR EVER! oh, and you were pretty smart, you know... you even had a dean's commendation as evidence! (pat on the back)

tell myself at 22, whilst no one might admit it, it took a lot working and studying at the same time... well, you made it, and have your Azure Louis Vuitton thanks to your hard work!

tell myself at 23, you should have thought carefully about moving back to Perth. and to listen to you own guts instead of bowing to pressures by other parties...

tell myself at 24, marriage life isn't all pretty. thread lightly on ALL AREAS. ouh, and a beautiful baby might make it all worthwhile... even if it isn't, at least you have reason to ignore your husband!

tell myself at 24.5, stop procrastinating and start doing your work!

sekian, terima kasih!

i heart this song! so help me God!

2010-01-19T01:23:00.000-08:00

Why do i love this song? simple.
for starters, it has clint moffatt in it, to which i am NOT shy to admit that i used to have a huge crush on him. not only that, the whole nermus thing came about thanks to MR Moffatt himself... so not only it is a good song, it reminded me of my wonderful times with my nermuses.
secondly, im feeling a little mellow since my 2nd wedding anniversary is coming up.
by the way, to hear the full song, go to youtube and search for Without You - Jaclyn Victor ft Same Same.
Same Same... hahaha... i know. so dumb but i don't care. that's a part of me that i'm not willing to let go, no matter how ridiculous the band name is.

OH, i exercized! On saturday morning, i did a one hour yoga dance routine by Ministry of Sound. Suffice to say, i was all sore the whole weekend. But at least i didn't feel guilty chomping down the Oreo McFlurry on Sunday.

Off i go to pick up my baby boy!

Btw, here are the lyrics!

First time I saw you I knew
I knew I love you cause my heart stopped
First time I held you I knew
I knew I love you cause my heart stopped

Cause I … la la la la la love you
Love can make you feel so funny
No house, no car not even money will make me feel the way
What I’m really trying to say
Can’t live another day
Without you
Without you
Without you
Without you

First time I kissed you I knew
I knew I had you cause your heart stopped
First time I missed you I knew
I knew I never wanna leave you

Love can make you feel so funny
No house, no car not even money will make me feel the way
What I’m really trying to say
Can’t live another day
Without you
Cause I … la la la la la love you
Cause I … la la la la la love you (love you)

Cause I … la la la la la love you
Cause I … la la la la la love you
La la la la la
La la la la la

2010

2010-01-01T16:33:00.000-08:00

2010 is gonna be my year! haha...

2010 for me started with a blast. and i can only hope the same for my friends...
it started with 2 family dinners in Shah Alam, which ended somewhere around 10pm. then, syazwan, adam, nabila n myself decided to drive to curve for the fireworks. our location was so strategic that we were able to see three fireworks from different companies; one utama, cineleisure damansara and the curve. ouh and some very small firework i have no idea where. but... to make things short, ONE UTAMA won the firework battle. and adam loved the display too so YAY. we obviously went back to SLEEP. haih, old people...

the next day we lazed around... and we decided to go to Pavillion after friday prayer's. i entered the shopping mall with a shoe in mind, but left with... well, two other things. my crazy day started with seeing the word SALE associated with Furla. the first thing Awan picked up with a suede tan bag, which was at 40% off. gorgeousness. however, being someone who hasn't been buying designer bags for while, i was a bit skeptical when asking about the price.
turns out, it was much cheaper than i imagined. before buying, i remembered cole haan was also on sale. btw, ive decided to not go to obviously expensive stores, ie. gucci, lv, prada as 1. it's too popular. the bag on every woman's arm in pavillion are either gucci, lv or coach. and 2ndly, it's just wat it is, OBVIOUSLY EXPENSIVE. wanting to be smart, i told the salesperson to reserve the bag for half an hour as i wanted to check out cole haan.
see what happened was the salesperson from Furla followed me and told me that someone desperately wants that bag. MY BAG. Hello!!! Instinct fought with my brain for a good one minute. and i thought, well, if i was gonna reinvent myself. this was the time, i am never going to let SOMEONE buy MY BAG. so.... ta-da! (pictures below)

here's my new year's resolution:
1. to reinvent myself... to revamp the new and improved mummy adam... the only setback with this is that i need more cash... this will lead to resolution no. 2. but, before that, i'm gonna share all the things i bought this new year.

me browsing in furla and adam calculating the final price after discount

my furla baby, arrived safely at home ;)

my 2 babies; adam danish & furla... haha!

my open & exit door sign & button bracelet thanks to Bella!

now, do u see why i had to have that bag? ahh... gorgeousness!
haha, now let's go back to my other resolutions...
2. to get more money, get registered.
the only way for me to get this is to get my registration to LJBM. and then, get a promotion. im really eyeing this one cause if my husband really wants to work abroad, i can't leave until i have myself registered with the professional body.

3. to lose weight.
well, isn't this the resolution every woman has in mind?

hehe.. that's all for now cause we're gonna clean this house.

see you.

I LOVE MY BAG!!!
and happy new year everybody!
muahxxxxx

my bestie... the crazy woman...

2009-12-29T18:22:00.000-08:00

since everyone is sort of closing their 2009 blog, my bestie asked me to check out another friend's blog. and usually when i check out one blog, i'll go check out the other blogs that i follow.

Please go here and read it before i can continue...

DONE?

okay, it all started from her craze of bags... which i tot has been fulfilled since she got two last monday but that didn't happen... so moving on.
now...
once she knew she got her bag, she blogged about it
then we she got her bag, she blogged about it
then before she went to sleep, she blogged about the bags... again... TWICE.
while one might think that this woman couldn't be crazier...
she blogged AGAIN... eh wait, no... her BAG BLOGGED.
percaya tak? the bag is so genius the it can blog.
see now, one would finally understand why this woman would love her bag so much.
the bags are not only pretty, they are computer literates as well!

haha, babe, your blog posting did not only make my day, it reminded me of why we're mates... despites all our annoyingness and cat fights, we have each other's best interest at heart.
and come 2010, we'll be friends for 12 years! isk... tua nye!
haha... can u believe it we even forgot our meeting that was supposed to be in front of Sri Aman 2 years ago...

isk, bimBo-es lah!

money talks? money WALKS... OUT ON ME! :(

2009-12-27T22:25:00.000-08:00

a chunk (i won't say how big if not for sure someone out there will 'pau' me) of money fell on my lap today. and before the money has the chance of being cleared in my bank account, i already have a big list of debts that i need to settle.
1. car insurance n road tax
2. the debt to daddy that i have been shamelessly keeping quiet
3. saving up for my trip
4. house loan, yadda yadda yadda
to simplify it.
it's money... NO MORE.

whilst i am very the thankful that i have the resources to pay off all my debts, i wonder why we have to pay so much to the government.

i pay road tax but the roads are still berlopak2, not to mention hazardous.
the public toilets are still dirty...

money => difficult to come, VERY EASY TO GO!

i'm FINALLY at peace with myself... everyone else can...

2009-12-22T19:01:00.001-08:00

SUCK IT!!!

to be content with what i am... or who i am took longer than i expected.
but i'm there now. and no one can rain on my parade.

so here's what im telling u...
SUCK IT baby!

someday i wish to be back to this.

my dear sis is living it up in Sheffield UK.
we miss u. n pray that we have enough money to visit u.

ahh... and at this very moment, TROUBLE IS A FRIEND by Lenka rung from one of my colleague's phone. very true indeed...

a rather splendid weekend, if i may say so

2009-12-21T20:03:00.001-08:00

my weekend bonanza started off with adam's birthday on 17th December 2009.
My bouncing baby is now one year and is ready to conquer the world!

Here's MR Muhammad Adam Danish bin Mohd Syazwan
One Year Young...

Adam's birthday was held at KFC Extreme Park, in Shah Alam and it was a good turnout. So good that we didn't have enough time to spend with everyone. However, i would commend KFC on the great job and would definitely recommend anyone thinking of having their child's birthday to do it there as gifts were aplenty and the cost was not too bad considering the fact that all we had to do was have fun... OUH... and thanks for the gifts people. you have saved us TONNES in cash. and for that, XOXO!!!

Adam with Atok & Nenek

The scene before the havoc

Stylo Baby Qish

Us & the birthday boy

Happy birthday to you~~~~~
mummy & daddy loves u very much!

ALL in ALL we had a wonderful time... thanks for everyone who came.

After the party, some of us headed back to our place in BBSA to hang out. Some of us hung out until 3am. Some of us until 5am. and some of us slept at 11pm. Ha ha... nonetheless, it was a fun sleepover and hopefully everyone enjoyed it as much as we did!

If Adam's 2nd birthday bash is anything better than his 1st, then i'm definitely looking forward to it!

xoxo,
mummy adam.

i hate to tell myself i told you so... but!

2009-12-16T21:47:00.000-08:00

I TOLD MYSELF SO!
i knew ms dodol will make a big fuss over me wearing the uniform and wanted to take a photo of me in it. but thankfully... tak sempat.
anyway, you can read about it soon enough, i bet... here!
NONETHELESS... i had fun babes. nanti blanje i satu ringgit lagi k! :p

birds chirping, people laughing. most importantly, ME laughing!

2009-12-16T20:14:00.000-08:00

After what seemed like 2 months of pure torture and paperworks, we finally handed in our second in a row project on Tuesday. Yesterday, my boss and i went for a presentation. and i think we finally have room to breathe now. Kak wani can concentrate on being a fiancee and i can concentrate on... the many things i have put behind... too many to name.
for the first time in a very long time.
i can hear the birds chirping.
people laughing.
i cudn't remember the last time me and kak wani laughed this hard until we cried.
it was like a big burden off our shoulders. so big that it took 2 cars to submit. and a possibly upset Technical Manager that we had to put that much load on his new car.
oh well, duty calls! :)
however, my Client just called and told me another project is due at the End of Jan. but... that's January talk. i think i'll enjoy December first, tqvm.
Adam's one today and we're havin his bday party in KFC tomorrow. will try to upload photos, but don't count on it since im such a lazy2 bum. we have tried to invite everyone but due to money constraints and space constraints so we could only invite our close mates...
oh i'm considering joining back the gym. but that depends on my time though. i hope i can work something out. i miss hanging out at CF. altho it is pricy. i have to admit it is a pretty fun gym. and plus a fun gym mate, it wudnt even feel like working out. wait ye aishah, i will try to join u again.
oh speaking about ms aishah (yarabbi sorry this post is going from one topic to another but you chose to read it, so... ) we're having our BK lunch soon. it feels like forever since we actually hung out. and eventho its only an hour, it's ok. it's a start i guess. but she will feel like going out with a factory worker since im wearing my office's uniform and well, let's face it. it looks like a factory worker's shirt. shh... don't tell my dad coz he designed it!
it's almost 12.30 and im waiting for the green light from aishah.
see u later!

adam's turning 1 and i'm still...

2009-12-13T21:56:00.000-08:00

a) ALIVE
hehehe... most importantly, so is he! the most clingyest, charmingness, want to bite pipiness boy is turning one in three days and i'm still alive.

b) FAT
okay, that may be a bit out of the line. but while i have lost the weight - numbers wise, i haven't lost it, flabby flat tirey wise. Oh God, i wish Awan never reads this since i always lectured him on using proper English. Oh well, im not perfect!

c) AN UNREGISTERED QS
okay, this part i have to admit is entirely my fault. i was supposed to submit my two year diary this year and it's 14th december and i'm nowhere near done. my dad has been lecturing me as to when i'm gonna do it. and... well, i don't know. i wish i have a clone. Scientists, bile lagi ni???

d) DRIVING MY SWIFTY
i don't have the money, therefore, i haven't had the chance to change my wheels. BUT... it's gone from dull grey to fiery red. Well, Mitsubishi red tho cause i can't afford the Suzuki Red.

e) CRAZY
err... i don't think i have to elaborate on this, do i?

since i was interrupted while drafting this post, i guess i better end this post.
nonetheless, happy bday baby!!!

Dear Adam Danish...

2009-10-20T02:15:00.000-07:00

My dear son, Adam Danish...
looking back at all your photos brought back so much wonderful memories of the three of us together. The other one being your daddy, of course... :)
Over the past 10 months, I have had numerous headaches, aching back pains and aches everywhere, going up and down, waking up in the middle of the nite only to find you pressed firmly against my body (coz u are such a lasak sleeper) and haven't been able to wake up late.
You pushed me to my every limit, giving me the strength i never knew i had within. I've always been someone to love little ones, but with you, I discovered something i never imagined possible... that you could love someone else more than you love yourself.
Just so you know, you have an extremely sporting and wonderful Daddy. Without him, I'm sure i would've fallen flat on my back. And without him as well, we both know that the house would be dull. :)
At one week old, you were so tiny i was afraid that i might break you.
At one month old, you were big enough to fit into the first piece of cloth we ever bought for you, the ralph lauren jumper.
At two months old, we set fort in Bukit Bandaraya Shah Alam.
At three months old, you had your first fever, which kept me awake... and on the phone 24/7.
At four months, we went holidaying Down Under.
At five months, you started rolling over!!!
At half a year, we had a double celebration, with a mini cake at atok and wan's and a doughnut cake at grandpapa and grandmama's.
At seven months, we had to send you to Taska... :(
At eight months, your dad contracted the Influenza A virus and had to be quarantined from you for 5 days!
At nine months, you were busy moving like a soldier surrounding the house.
At ten months, you prolly have bruises from going up and down and knocking every single thing that comes into your way.
months and months to come after that, i can only imagine how you can surprise me.
Muhammad Adam Danish.
=)
i love that no matter how imperfect i am as a human being, i'll always be a mummy to you.
most importantly, i love you.

more money = more problems

2009-10-07T19:32:00.000-07:00

my babe and i was talking in the middle of our break from work and we discussed how when you have more money, more problems were sure to come soon after. ie. i got my kutu money and my teeth needed some maintenance done. and a friend of mine got her bonus and her a/c kaputted on her. why is it that the universe won't allow us to be wealthy for a long period of time? maybe we don't deserve it yet. maybe the universe knows that we will spend every extra cent on something we have a lot of like shoes... or clothes... and end up regretting soon after we left the shop.

i finally went to the dentist alone yesterday. a LOT of emotion came over me. and it didn't help that i had to wait for another 45 minutes before i was called in. but it was all over in 10 minutes and i'm soooooooooooo glad that i survived it!

im sure a lot of friends can relate to this when i say i hate driving nowadays. everyone is in a hurry to get to somewhere. driving on the left lane when he wants turn right. cutting queues. driving slow on a fast lane. turning without a signal! that is my pet peeve. although i'm prolly so used to it that i may be guilty of this too... sometimes... ;)

on a more serious note, i almost had a heart attack when i lost my dad's personal pendrive this morning. it took almost the whole office running around outside the office, in the rain, trying to find the pendrive. after almost an hour of searching, we finally found it in the drain with the help of Kak Ita's torchlight. haih... imagine the catastrophy that could have happened if we didn't find the pendrive. thanks everyone who helped!!! i owe u guys!

finally, im rested n ready for my holiday in the east coast. balik kampunggggggggggggggggggggggggg.... wooo oooo ooooo balik kampungggggggggggggg.... hehehe... my sotong goreng... my running away from katak. stay tune for stories of city girl going into the kampung!

toodles.

i want to burn off some of my kutu money at kassa searching for something to wear for the wedding this saturday... =)

raya + weddings + fatness + brokeness + pictures + going aways + whatever else

2009-10-06T20:41:00.000-07:00

it's been a while since i posted... anything.
anyway, to me loyal 2/3 readers, selamat hari raya! maaf zahir & batin!
adam had his first Syawal with matching bajus and everything...
and 6 pairs of baju raya thanks to Wan & Grandmama
oh n lots and lots of duit raya (don't worry, it's all safe in the bank... in HIS bank!)
oh feast ur eyes on my little one...

Adam Danish enjoying the spotlight

Oh my sister (the infamous Auntie Palin) went to do her masters on the first week of Syawal. She's currently with mummy having good food at M&S in the UK. Ahhh... so jealous! InsyaAllah if the ASB divident is good and Adam walks fast, we will be making our way there in 2010. *wink wink*

Other than that, abah had his 52nd birthday last monday on the 5th of October. i can tell you after the meals that we had on that day, i swear we prolly gained like 3kg on that day itself. breakfast of roti pisang (my own fault), a very elaborate lunch at Siriwan Thai and a heavy hi-tea of pizza hut (stuffed crust and all) and the very very very scrumptous New York Cheesecake from Secret Recipe. and Sari Ratu for dinner. I love food... but not all good food in all day. my body CAN NOT get used to this!

This weekend im heading to Terengganu again for a wedding full of crisis. Tok Kie's eldest cucu from his second marriage. a girl marrying a... controversial man that she has known no longer than one year. scary isn't it. i think everyone is excited to see how the wedding pans out... me too, if not i wouldn't be so eager to drive for 5 hours for a weekend. and also... the sotong goreng. one of the reasons why we're going there again... coz we missed the sotong goreng during raya time.

Oh and Adam has learn the art of sitting... and climbing. it's a bit tiring to take care of him now since he climbs everything he can... including yours truly. it's a joy to watch surely... and thank God for the walker coz if it isnt' for the walker, i wouldn't be able to do anything at all. :).

i'm heading off to subang parade in an hour to buy adam's trolley cum walker cum toy since i have some extra cash thanks to the kutu... :)

see yah!

my desperate attempt in putting every single thing that happened in a very long time in words... observe...

2009-08-23T22:56:00.000-07:00

my attempt starts now...

HAPPY RAMADHAN everyone!!! this year ramadhan is even more special cause i have my own family, and we have our own house.

oh oh the one thing that caught my eye yesterday while i was on the way back from picking up apple crumble from my parent's place (tq mummy) was...
a guy, old enough to be my father i think (cause he has gray hair) brisk walking under the scorching hot sun in RAMADHAN with his ipod and reading... wait for it, the Holy Quran.
i was stunned with nothing but respect for this man... i wouldn't imagine myself...
1. walking outside
2. under the hot sun
3. during Ramadhan
whoever you are, i respect you n hope to be you someday.

lets see, what's next...
oh yeah... in the light of what is happening in Malaysia, my husband caught the Influenza A virus. as a result of that, we have isolated him from our son, Muhammad Adam Danish... which although was the right thing to do, was hard for the both of us. We had to spend the first day of Ramadhan separate. N Adam didn't get to see daddy for 5 days! But everything went back to normal yesterday and although Awan is still wearing a mask, at least he was around. And i got back to being my lazy self while watching DVD until i fell asleep.

Oh yes, Nur Aiman Qistina, my brother's baby girl is officially one year old today... so happy bday qish qish!!! i love you no matter how naughty you are. =)

Nur Aiman Qistina (1 year young)

What else can i cramp into this post... Oh yeah, starting next week, we will be baking our kuihs for hari raya. We managed to get 50 orders. That's not bad for beginners right? he he he... can't wait! baking with good company is really fun. Half the time is gone with the three of us crapping away... next week... TO THE OVEN!!!

gotta get back to work! see you later!

when mummy meets pedro...

2009-07-28T01:58:00.000-07:00

last sunday, mummy went depressed and crazy.
she woke up late.
practically persuaded hubby to go buy breakfast.
and slept for another 2 hours.
woke up.
felt extremely hungry.
and cooked indomee. or was it ibumie?
anyway, mummy wasn't happy..
she needed to see pedro...
pedro... ooo pedro...
pedro was super special coz hubby got pedro too...
im talking about the shoes...
haaa.... shoes....
even better... paid-by-someone-else-shoes...
heaven... hahahaha!

other than that, this mummy is on a mission to finish all her work...
which is impossible... but mama's maid is coming home soon so at least my house is settled. the unfolded mountain of clothes and un-ironed clothes will be put to it's place. yay!

mr adam danish is gallivanting all over the house in his walker. we even had to reconfigure our furniture so that he could walk around the house. i miss him.

oh and as for the drama drama drama in my life, i have decided to put a blind eye to it.
why? you may ask... because... i don't care about you enough to let you ruin my mood.
i don't like it when you mess with my friends.
me being somewhat superior to other people doesn't mean that i'm a normal person.
f*ck you losers. you are shallow and so kampung-like.
i particularly lose respect to those who talk behind other people's back.
i have been nothing but nice to you and you had to stab all over that by... i don't know what you did... or how you did... but you are spiteful. and you don't deserve any attention from us. from now on, you are just a person i see almost everyday. you to me as good as a mannequin in the shop windows. lifeless and heartless.

in the mad search for perfection

2009-07-23T23:56:00.000-07:00

one of the criteria to being a messed up mummy is the stubborness and unwillingness to accept the fact that perfection doesn't happen.

notwithstanding the fact that i have a great life, i also have too many unfinished business.
my credit card bills, my overbubbling evolving work, my desire to start a small cookie business, my erupting volcano of unfolded clothes...

this is me not trying to whine, cause i know despite of my lil baggages, i have an amazing hubby, gorgeous son, amazing family, extremely fun and supportive workmates and gorgeous friends. i have the best support system anyone could imagine.

so amazing that i keep on having amazing weekends after amazing weekends. last night my friends agreed to stay overnight at my place as the hubby was away at Langkawi. we cooked dinner, and our lasagne was ready just before midnight and we feasted while watching Confessions of a Shopaholic before dozing off in front of the TV. ahh... bliss.

we woke up late, (as expected) but made it to work only 11 minutes late! not bad huh? anyway, tomorrow i'm bringing adam to get his shots. then we have a housewarming event at Aishah's place which i can't wait since i can't even remember when was the last time we met!

oh and we're making cookie samples again tomorrow! :)

we've sold 24 'balangs' and we need more!!!

mad weekend!

2009-07-22T23:18:00.000-07:00

i had an awesome weekend last week. it started with...

Exhibit 1:
sample making for our mini business. (if you can call it a business)
here are the finished product...
sugi @ Rm18/50 pieces
chocolate nestum @ RM20/50 pieces
pineapple tart @ RM23/50 pieces
you see for now we only have 3 products as we are starting small... so that we could focus on the yumminess!

chocolate nestum in the making

sugi on a platter

melt-in-your-mouth tarts

OH OH... and then we had a roadtrip to batu pahat for our colleagues wedding! pictures on the way since i have used my limit for photo capacity. :)

on the way back, our wee family stopped in Malacca for an overnite stay in Renaissance Hotel. Gorgeous place with complimentary baby cot. and junk food basket and a plate of gourmet chocolate. so good especially after that 4 hour long drive.

came back on sunday and the three of us got affected with very very bad food poisoning and had MC for 2 days. not a very good ending to our weekend but at least the three of us had some quality time together, on the bed! :p

will be back with the photos. i promise!

the lowest of low

2009-07-13T23:02:00.000-07:00

it's been quite sometime since i last felt down, angry and sad all at once.
work has been bugging me, as usual.
however, what was the most stable thing for me suddenly was shaken to the core just yesterday.
and it was the tip of a very sensitive iceberg.
maybe it's time to let go, yes...
but to ask me to let go only for a while... and without the decency to give me time to adjust, that is just low.
i am angry because eventho i am a mother first, i still have work and can not abandon at short notice.
i am sad because that person expected me to alter my feelings
and i am down because for a long time now i haven't been able to complete anything without having something else coming in the way.

my little khalifah!

2009-07-08T01:56:00.000-07:00

i've been wanting to put this photo up for so long! finally someone (my sis) was kind enough to upload it and my mum emailed it to me today. so people, enjoy. he is my one and only prince, my Muhammad Adam Danish, the reason why i still have my crazy routine at work, so i could provide the best for him. it's amazing how when he smiles, all your troubles could melt away... so here, hopefully he could make u smile too!

cheers, mummy adam!

~my new pen & bracelet~

2009-07-02T01:13:00.000-07:00

i am a true believer in karma...
having said that, i've been very content with my life for a while now...

oh before i babble on further, thank you wani n katy for the beautiful named pen and bracelet for my belated birthday!!!
life in the office has been helluva lot better since we triple team-ed and did havoc around the office.
hehehe... wani kat meeting skrang so caca bosan.
balik laaaaaaaaaaaaa....

i actually had something else to say but ive lost my train of thoughts thanks to my husband asking for QS advice, free of charge!

i'll be back!

Me & my lil family

2009-07-01T00:25:00.000-07:00

isn't it amazing how a photo can make you feel so relaxed. with just that one photo, you forget for a second those people who pretends, those who dictates and those who you secretly wish you could kill. With me, it's the photo of my little boy growing up in front of my very eyes and the very involved father he has playing with him and making sure that he has everything.

it doesn't matter if we were broke at the end of the month. or we scratch our heads thinking of ways to settle our bills. when he smiles, or in this case, when i look at his photo, every problem seems minimal.

oh yes, I am also thankful for my friends who relieve me from mummy duty and my hubby who lets me have MY time. :)

so i may bitch about the clients everyday other day or so...
and i may not have enough money to last me till the end of each month...
or get to go gallivanting all around due to the latest influenza A virus...
or even have enough time at home to UNPACK!

but i love my life. i love my little family. i love my friends. i love the emptiness amidst the love. i love my messy cupboard. my messy "filing" area. my very basic bathrooms. my 2 boxes full of unfolded clothes.

because it's mine. =D

bing bang BOOM!

2009-06-22T01:51:00.000-07:00

firstly, i turned a quarter of a century last friday.
but i had a very eventful birthday weekend altogether.
it started with a very annoying client haunting me every second.
then running around getting food for my office.
n then cleaning the office for our doa selamat.
and then the doa selamat.
and then... the BIG SURPRISE!
to make it short, i thought my house were invaded with hantu and penyamun and i shouted as if they are trying to kill me and then hid behind my bed.
it all ended well but left me shaken for at least 20 minutes!
but i have to give it to Awan's siblings - they made my birthday a hell lot of fun... and also prolly shorten my lifespan by about 5 years!
and that was FRIDAY ALONE.
and then there's saturday where we went to the hospital for Adam's shots... and had a very torturous dinner at Restoran Tasik Indah. We pre-ordered for 7 but my brother n sis-in-law couldn't make it since baby Qistina is unwell. The restaurant prolly cooked for 9! so imagine 5 adults trying to finish a meal made for 9!
Oh yeah, Sunday was Father's Day. HAPPY FATHER's DAY to my dad and ADAM's DADDY!!!
we stayed at home most of the day except for breakfast at my parent's place. Waited for our favourite married couple, Fizah and Kopi to come visit for tea but instead... i should've known better, she arrived just in time for DINNER!
cooked Fried Kway Teow and Taufu Telur Goreng and SAmbal kicap without the sambal...
played Wii, laughed until we cried - Go HULA HULA FIZAH!!! and had Creme Caramel that i had made earlier to close the day. They left around 11 and we got ready for bed as we had to go to work the next day... :(
anyway, i had an amazing birthday weekend!
thanks everyone!!!

XOXO

happy 1/2 year my baby boy!

2009-06-17T00:37:00.000-07:00

Muhammad Adam Danish is 6 months old today!!!
my lasak, white cotton baby is finally 6 months old.
=)
all i can say is... i pat myself for successfully taking care of another human being without putting him in major harm. hahahaha...
now... where can i get half a cake?

mundane MONDAY!

2009-06-14T23:12:00.000-07:00

today depicts perfectly what a Monday represent to us working people.
It rained heavily when i woke up at 4am for Adam's feed.
and by 7.30 a.m. the weather was nice, cooling and moody.
This is what the weekend is supposed to be! Not MONDAY!
anyway, despite the very hot weather, i rather enjoyed my weekend.
Oh, I found my hari raya kain! now, if only i know where to send for tailoring.
and.. Adam has learn the art of rumbling tumbling all over the house. ok well, maybe not the house but the living room, which has sent us very concerned parents to the curve to buy his babyden. Awan came home last night and assembled and decorated the den. it's like a cute Adam's only spot, only covered with bars! oh well, it doesn't matter to me what people might think about me putting my baby in the cage but i'd rather know that he's safe inside with his toys rather than rolling around the house.
anyhuu...
lots and lots more work come tumbling in today. in addition, the phonelines are not working, which is a plus in some extend. :) but also a hassle in a lot of ways.
i guess i should get a start on, huh?
here i go lazily looking at this stupid drawing that has been revised for the thousandth time...
*boohoo*

fasting moi

2009-06-09T23:34:00.000-07:00

today after a very very long hiatus of puaseness i have decided to resume paying back my "fast days" as i don't have many days till the next Ramadhan.

as a result of that, my other fasting colleague decided to walk around and look at some cloths for baju raya. the designs were endless and i find myself confused as to which design i should go for this year. this year would be extremely special as it is my first raya with my son and my husband WITHOUT a big bump on my tummy.

so yeah, i used to be the ones who think same coloured cloths on raya is tacky but I am proudly stating that i am doing the same thing this year. :D

oh, and adam is loving the banana smoothie that he gets to have every evening. and he keeps on getting his arms stuck in his cot at night cause eversince he learns how to rollover, he's been doing it non stop. also, i was bored so i went around jobstreet and found a very interesting job in Dubai. i am contemplating sending my resume in just for funs sake... who knows, i may be dubai-worthy. hahaha...

i still love Malaysia though. Foreign countries are fun for holiday purposes but when it comes to having a life, i guess i still love my Malaysia. altho, ironically people call me melayu celup.

oh oh and im having my birthday soon! ISO meeting urgent la plak. haih...

mummy writes... again!

2009-06-07T23:14:00.000-07:00

it's been too long since i last write... something. well, something other than office work. anyway since i am finally a little relaxed in the office, i thought i might give it a go.
Let me start with a simple introduction...
as of almost 6 months ago, i became a mummy for the first time.
and moved into a house 2 months after that.
started a love hate relationship with my body.
went travelling down under.
went back to my new hometown on the east coast.
and moved office.

to make things even shorter, my life hasn't been dull for a while.
and i have to say, i miss the dullness.

as a working wife, life wasn't too hectic.
but as a working wife + mummy, i cherish any 5 minutes nap i could get.
not to say i don't love my life. i really do.
not many people my age get to live my life...
but sometimes i wish i could be single.

i always think life is fair.
just when you think you can't handle it anymore, life throws a curveball at you.
this happened last weekend.

1. my baby rolled over numerous times and everytime he does it, he'll smile at me as if to show off.
2. i got sick and had the royal treatment from my husband.
3. i got to STAY AT HOME!!!
4. i had the long overdue girls outing...

while the first 3 is self explanatory, i would like to elaborate further on no. 4.
my babes decided to have lunch at la bodega in bangsar... this is because she is moving to JB :(
huwaaaaa... my batu which i call when i got off late from work and go "HUWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA" is now gonna be milesssss away.
i know we don't usually meet up but knowing that she is around always makes me happy.
but she's going there with the one that she loves. so... i let her go. i think! :)
AND... another babe is getting married!!! this december and she wants us to be her bridesmaid... so that gives a jumpstart to my love hate relationship with my body.

:) i have to go back to work. and i do apologize for the incredibly long entry as... i have been wanting to write for a longggggggggggggggggggggggggg time!

you get it, don't you? ;)

xox