Confessions of a messed up mummy

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

let me tell you something about the men in my life...

these are the men in my life, the people who i wake up to, and sleep next to...

Exhibit A: Mohd Syazwan (the husband)

Always the disciplinarian, but bendable if you know the right buttons to push. This morning, he knew that i didn't have enough sleep and when i woke up to get Adam's things ready for taska, he had washed all the bottles n made Adam's breakfast. whilst i have already have an amazing family, i'm also extremely blessed to have great in-laws as i have heard some stories about horror in-laws.

Exhibit B: Muhammad Adam Danish (the son)

Cheeky, naughty, makes you want to bite him every single second, attentive, lasak. Sometimes when i look into his eyes, i feel a little sad, not knowing how he will react to having another little brother/sister. but i guess that's our job as parents to make sure that he knows that he is still loved the same. his smile is enough to light up anyone's day and while i can't wait for him to fall asleep, i keep on missing him even though he's sleeping right next to me.

there's the ever so famous quote of men: can't live with them, can't live without them. well, for me, it's my men, can't live without them.

love you both!

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

randomness

it's been berabad kot since i last write... something other than work related craps.
it's the holy month of Ramadhan again. it's August! and so many things have been happening this year...
for example, i am pregnant with our second child.
n other exciting things which unfortunately my mind can not seem to remember at this point in time.
i've been having a few random thoughts in my head lately.

like yesterday while i was driving i remembered how i believed when someone told me that Ziana Zain cried in one performance because everyone found out that her name is Roziana. So macam tak glamour sbb tu la dia nangis. and i believed it.

Or how my sister was telling me if you would want someone to agree with you, your shadow will do a better job at it.

while this is so true, i wonder why i don't live by it. i should. because it will eliminate so many unnecessary headaches in my life.

Sure, im not perfect, but so isnt everyone else. so from now on, i'm gonna try not to expect everyone to agree with me and accept life as it is. i may not be liked by everyone but at least i have my close friends and families who are well, let's face it... stuck with me! ha ha!

anyways, happy ramadhan to everyone! here's hoping that we will appreciate the little things that we often take for granted and cherish it forever.

xoxo!

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

in love again...

I’ve been doing some soul searching lately, quietly tho.
One question that has been lingering around in my mind, if I am so in touch or emotional, why do I come out as someone strong… or garang, even?
If I was opinionated, it would at least make it okay.
I spend my whole life agreeing… (my husband might beg to differ) but the only person I’d argue with is the one closest to me, my husband…
Kesian… of course. Why do we take out all our rage on the closest to us? Padahal they’ve always been there for us, unconditionally…
So… in case I never have the guts to say this… I’ll write it out. I’m falling in love… with my husband, who takes every bit of me, the good and the bad… n while he may bebel or whatever, at least he accepts me the way I am… which is the most important thing to me, also, it helps that he is still good looking even with the extra belly.
I’m also falling in love with my boy, Adam Danish. Looking at him sleep yesterday made me realize how big he has become, he may only one year plus, but soon he’ll be 5 years old, then 10! Then 20! My brain can only hold so much memories, but at least I have a heart to remind me constantly the amount of love and pride a child can give to someone.
Oh… I also love Uncle Kracker’s lyrics to the song SMILE… I hate talented people! No fair!

Monday, May 17, 2010

perseverance

yesterday was the first day of the AirAsia zero seat promotion and for the first time, hubby and i sat in front of the pc (1 pc and a laptop actually) to get the best deal.
we must have done the search more than 10 times, entered the details more than gazillionth time and all we get is "sorry, the seats that you have booked is no longer available"
i remember hubby and i cursed repeatedly, one after another, whilst Adam would occasionally be disturbed from his sleep as we were letting out our frustrations at each other.
We were at the fourth hour and i remembered telling myself, im not going to sleep!
but also "this will be the last try and i will give up."

when the page refreshed and the word CONFIRM was written on it, i had to blink a few times... i thought i was so sleepy that i dreamed about it. but i wasn't. and it's true.

YAY! i'm going to Bandung!
good news is that we're going in another 11 months!
so i have ample time to save!

*shopping... weeee*

Thursday, May 6, 2010

blahhh

HANG IN THERE BABE!!!

Look what's happening to me...

Juggling everything (Exhibit A)

+ trying to reach the almost impossible (Exhibit B)

= exhibit C! haha

but you know what??

I'm just glad i have 2 ppl in my life that understands my exhibit Cness!

Love you two long time!

reminiscing happy moments...

saya bosan. penat. stressed. n ngantok.
somehow pictures always seem to cheer me up.

enjoy! (sorry gambar in merepek order)... coz i malas nk susun... hahaha