Confessions of a messed up mummy: May 2010

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

in love again...

I’ve been doing some soul searching lately, quietly tho.
One question that has been lingering around in my mind, if I am so in touch or emotional, why do I come out as someone strong… or garang, even?
If I was opinionated, it would at least make it okay.
I spend my whole life agreeing… (my husband might beg to differ) but the only person I’d argue with is the one closest to me, my husband…
Kesian… of course. Why do we take out all our rage on the closest to us? Padahal they’ve always been there for us, unconditionally…
So… in case I never have the guts to say this… I’ll write it out. I’m falling in love… with my husband, who takes every bit of me, the good and the bad… n while he may bebel or whatever, at least he accepts me the way I am… which is the most important thing to me, also, it helps that he is still good looking even with the extra belly.
I’m also falling in love with my boy, Adam Danish. Looking at him sleep yesterday made me realize how big he has become, he may only one year plus, but soon he’ll be 5 years old, then 10! Then 20! My brain can only hold so much memories, but at least I have a heart to remind me constantly the amount of love and pride a child can give to someone.
Oh… I also love Uncle Kracker’s lyrics to the song SMILE… I hate talented people! No fair!

Monday, May 17, 2010

perseverance

yesterday was the first day of the AirAsia zero seat promotion and for the first time, hubby and i sat in front of the pc (1 pc and a laptop actually) to get the best deal.
we must have done the search more than 10 times, entered the details more than gazillionth time and all we get is "sorry, the seats that you have booked is no longer available"
i remember hubby and i cursed repeatedly, one after another, whilst Adam would occasionally be disturbed from his sleep as we were letting out our frustrations at each other.
We were at the fourth hour and i remembered telling myself, im not going to sleep!
but also "this will be the last try and i will give up."

when the page refreshed and the word CONFIRM was written on it, i had to blink a few times... i thought i was so sleepy that i dreamed about it. but i wasn't. and it's true.

YAY! i'm going to Bandung!
good news is that we're going in another 11 months!
so i have ample time to save!

*shopping... weeee*

Thursday, May 6, 2010

blahhh

HANG IN THERE BABE!!!

Look what's happening to me...

Juggling everything (Exhibit A)

+ trying to reach the almost impossible (Exhibit B)

= exhibit C! haha

but you know what??

I'm just glad i have 2 ppl in my life that understands my exhibit Cness!

Love you two long time!

reminiscing happy moments...

saya bosan. penat. stressed. n ngantok.
somehow pictures always seem to cheer me up.

enjoy! (sorry gambar in merepek order)... coz i malas nk susun... hahaha