biggest pet peeve

Someone invading my personal space.
I may be messy n disorganized, but last I check, it's my table, not yours!
So get ur grubby paws of my space n get lost!
The least u can do is ask for permission...
Haih... Whatever happens to common courtesy?

my wish list! (for baby No. 2)

here ye here ye...
this post is dedicated to my besties and my hubby.
hahaha...

and also to myself so dat i dun kelam kabut when the time comes...

these are the things i still need for the new bub.

1. WARDROBE!
adam's wardrobe dah penuh and i need a new one so that i can unpack adam's old things that can be reused for the new baby...

2. HIS NAME!
believe it or not, we haven't settled on a name yet, or even discussed properly on this matter. opinions are welcomed...

3. TOWELS!
one thing yg can't be recycled from his brother... so far i've only bought one n i think i need to get at least 2 more.

believe it or not... those are the only things that i can think of... other small things include...

4. pacifier
5. cotton balls
6. glass bottles - chicco & pigeon

ok nanti pikir lagi...

my mind starts moving when everyone else is asleep...

it's almost midnight, my boy sleeping soundly beside me, n his daddy sleeping soundly too (well, i hope he is asleep) in another bed in Langkawi..
it's been a lil more than a month now since i've changed my status to a 'weekend wife' and what started to be a very lethargic change of routine has somewhat become a new routine for me.
don't get me wrong, it's still very lethargic, especially with my baby bump growing every single hour, me craving for food every waking second and having a little boy throwing tantrums once in a while can get the most of me, especially since i'm running around all over the place.
but...
i can say that i am lucky enough to be able to find the silver lining...
i start to look at the bigger picture and not worry so much about the little things in life...
i appreciate my marriage even more...
i appreciate my life even more..
oh, n i get treated like a queen everytime hubby comes back from Langkawi...
if this is what i have to live with in order for my family to get what we have all been wishing for, then so be it.
oh, as an update to myself, we're having another boy! yay! another hero for me! EDD is still end Jan but my gynae tells me to get myself ready around mid-Jan.
Mid-Jan? haha i'm already starting to buy things for the new bub... :P
what else... oh hubby received his long overdue bonus & increment... Alhamdulillah... kesian tgk die working so hard... finally it's all paying off!
my lil adam is now my very own boombox, if he's not singing, he's dancing and shouting, never a dull moment in mummy's life.
and as for me, i'm hanging in there... no major complaints.
of coz me being a human being always wanting more... but who isn't?
i have 2 meetings and a list of things to do at work this week so it's definitely not something i'm lookin forward to but at least at the end of the week i'm getting my pay! shopping lagik... :)
i have my eyes on a shopping bag but i still think i can resist the temptation...
ok ok tido time before i continue thinking...
good nite everyone....
daddy n adam, i love u two!
n lil baby in the tummy, i love u too!

let me tell you something about the men in my life...

these are the men in my life, the people who i wake up to, and sleep next to...

Exhibit A: Mohd Syazwan (the husband)

Always the disciplinarian, but bendable if you know the right buttons to push. This morning, he knew that i didn't have enough sleep and when i woke up to get Adam's things ready for taska, he had washed all the bottles n made Adam's breakfast. whilst i have already have an amazing family, i'm also extremely blessed to have great in-laws as i have heard some stories about horror in-laws.

Exhibit B: Muhammad Adam Danish (the son)

Cheeky, naughty, makes you want to bite him every single second, attentive, lasak. Sometimes when i look into his eyes, i feel a little sad, not knowing how he will react to having another little brother/sister. but i guess that's our job as parents to make sure that he knows that he is still loved the same. his smile is enough to light up anyone's day and while i can't wait for him to fall asleep, i keep on missing him even though he's sleeping right next to me.

there's the ever so famous quote of men: can't live with them, can't live without them. well, for me, it's my men, can't live without them.

love you both!

randomness

it's been berabad kot since i last write... something other than work related craps.
it's the holy month of Ramadhan again. it's August! and so many things have been happening this year...
for example, i am pregnant with our second child.
n other exciting things which unfortunately my mind can not seem to remember at this point in time.
i've been having a few random thoughts in my head lately.

like yesterday while i was driving i remembered how i believed when someone told me that Ziana Zain cried in one performance because everyone found out that her name is Roziana. So macam tak glamour sbb tu la dia nangis. and i believed it.

Or how my sister was telling me if you would want someone to agree with you, your shadow will do a better job at it.

while this is so true, i wonder why i don't live by it. i should. because it will eliminate so many unnecessary headaches in my life.

Sure, im not perfect, but so isnt everyone else. so from now on, i'm gonna try not to expect everyone to agree with me and accept life as it is. i may not be liked by everyone but at least i have my close friends and families who are well, let's face it... stuck with me! ha ha!

anyways, happy ramadhan to everyone! here's hoping that we will appreciate the little things that we often take for granted and cherish it forever.

xoxo!

in love again...

I’ve been doing some soul searching lately, quietly tho.
One question that has been lingering around in my mind, if I am so in touch or emotional, why do I come out as someone strong… or garang, even?
If I was opinionated, it would at least make it okay.
I spend my whole life agreeing… (my husband might beg to differ) but the only person I’d argue with is the one closest to me, my husband…
Kesian… of course. Why do we take out all our rage on the closest to us? Padahal they’ve always been there for us, unconditionally…
So… in case I never have the guts to say this… I’ll write it out. I’m falling in love… with my husband, who takes every bit of me, the good and the bad… n while he may bebel or whatever, at least he accepts me the way I am… which is the most important thing to me, also, it helps that he is still good looking even with the extra belly.
I’m also falling in love with my boy, Adam Danish. Looking at him sleep yesterday made me realize how big he has become, he may only one year plus, but soon he’ll be 5 years old, then 10! Then 20! My brain can only hold so much memories, but at least I have a heart to remind me constantly the amount of love and pride a child can give to someone.
Oh… I also love Uncle Kracker’s lyrics to the song SMILE… I hate talented people! No fair!

perseverance

yesterday was the first day of the AirAsia zero seat promotion and for the first time, hubby and i sat in front of the pc (1 pc and a laptop actually) to get the best deal.
we must have done the search more than 10 times, entered the details more than gazillionth time and all we get is "sorry, the seats that you have booked is no longer available"
i remember hubby and i cursed repeatedly, one after another, whilst Adam would occasionally be disturbed from his sleep as we were letting out our frustrations at each other.
We were at the fourth hour and i remembered telling myself, im not going to sleep!
but also "this will be the last try and i will give up."

when the page refreshed and the word CONFIRM was written on it, i had to blink a few times... i thought i was so sleepy that i dreamed about it. but i wasn't. and it's true.

YAY! i'm going to Bandung!
good news is that we're going in another 11 months!
so i have ample time to save!

*shopping... weeee*

blahhh

HANG IN THERE BABE!!!

Look what's happening to me...

Juggling everything (Exhibit A)

+ trying to reach the almost impossible (Exhibit B)

= exhibit C! haha

but you know what??

I'm just glad i have 2 ppl in my life that understands my exhibit Cness!

Love you two long time!

reminiscing happy moments...

saya bosan. penat. stressed. n ngantok.
somehow pictures always seem to cheer me up.

enjoy! (sorry gambar in merepek order)... coz i malas nk susun... hahaha

thanks AirAsiaX for the cheap flight!

our main photographer on the trip: Bella

sgt happy to see shops!

say WHAT mummy???

adam's first food in Gold Coast... cheezy garlic roll thingy... sedap pls, mummy n auntie die yg cilok! sorry baby...

my baby boy

anak mummy kepenatan, sorry lah, daddy awk tu gile tours...

in front of the aquaduck... we almost didnt make it!

randomness

QDeck

in front of QDeck... adam baru tido n no, i am not pregnant... YET! haha

my measely attempt at holding him up... aiyah, no upper body strength langsung!

photo OP!

kami always kelaparan



me & adam danish (mcm kimora tak? muke tembam, leher berlipat2... see the resemblance? hahaha)

the crab master yg HOTTTT

adam dgn sunnies mamaya yg terkorban a few days later
antara dayang2 yg menjaga Adam. Thanks again nadia & bella kasi caca & abg honeymoon... even sekali sekala... sangatlah penting! he he he

shopping for adam's rapper dude shoesss

i love cheap stuff!
the pic speaks for itself! @ carrera market

adam has his own brand of water!

kami kelaparan kerana husband saya bangunkan kami pada pukul 7 pagi dan kene keluar cepat2... kene on-time. haih, ade warden la plak...

multi talented musician

adam's first ride @ dreamworld... blue skiddo

Adam's second ride @ dreamworld: merry go round

adam's third ride @ dreamworld: circling swings!

WIPEOUT!
after this ride, daddy & nadia tersentap sbb mabok! teros carik makan! :s

crocodile dundee

tak naik ride, amik gambar pon cukup lah
muke bella in her own words: rase mcm nak mati! but props to her coz none of us was brave enough to join her

wiggleworld

shrek4d @ movieworld

kami mmg camwhores... :D

SMILE!!!

my solace...

whilst ur daddy may be an occasional idiot (oops!), thank God he has you to help me cool down =)

the circle of life...

i remember just a few years ago, i was able to go out with a tight tee on me and looked damn hot... now, even with a girdle, ppl ask me if i'm pregnant!!!

i used to laugh until i cried, now i cried until i laughed!

i had amazing gorgeous EXPENSIVE shoes, now they're all kept to collect dust as i can't fit in them anymore!

i'd be able to eat crap and still look good, now all the craps are going either to my tummy, thighs or double chin!

but...

now, though i have debts, i have my own home.
and a husband... and not to forget, my bundle of joy who never fails to make me smile.
that may not seem like much.. but it's enough to get me through the cruel circle of life (well, cruel to my body lah)

mellow me...

i've been extremely mellow today..
if u don't believe me, ask Aishah...
something thats supposed to be funny got me tearing up...
and ive been doing quite a few thinking lately...
i don't necessarily like to think...
thinking leads to procrastinating...
haih...
see i'm still thinking...
if it wasn't for my baby's very light sleep, i'd prolly still be thinking
but i gotta switch off my laptop, and join my boy on the mattress.
i miss home...
i miss my hubby..
but he's coming home tomorrow...
i wonder if i could ask him to bring me out shopping...
OMG Woman! Stop thinking.

Aishah, esok buat hairband...
we need to figure out a way to get rich soon...
so u can get ur iPhone... and i can pay off my debts...
Good night World...
I LOVE YOU
(What the?!!???)

we all gotta start from somewhere...

as i spent the remainder of the night being a couch potato in my parent's EXTREMELY COMFORTABLE state-of-the-art (ok, exxagerating here) lazyboy, I wondered why hubby and i didn't get the ciplak and a fraction of the real lazyboy price while we were furniture hunting.

These are my answers:

1. They're HUGE
2. They take up space
3. They're fake
4. They're HUGE (which brings me to the conclusion that my house is small)

Throughout my life, i can safely say that i am blessed, though don't get me wrong, i do crave for the extra perks in life. Having been given an opportunity to study abroad, to understand people... and to feel what it's like to stand on my own two feet. whilst i may not enjoy every second of it, i do appreciate the chance i had to experience all this.

so, i guess what i'm trying to say here, is that firstly, i didn't buy that lazyboy because i wanted the original with the 10 year guarantee just because i didn't want to settle for a second/or third even grade version of the real deal, secondly, because my house IS small, and that's only because i have to start from the bottom... from the real means that i have and thirdly, why couldn't all these thoughts come to me at a more appropriate time? not at midnite!

i believe im not done thinking... well, we'll see...

~im thankful for my resources, my family which i was born into, my friends and most importantly, my own little family that we made~

Thank you Allah for blessing me. Amin... ;)

where are all my clothes?!???

thursday mornings are usually easy for me...
why? because it's uniform day!
but not this thursday?
why? u may ask again...
because some stupid idiot decided to conjure up a last minute 2 and a half HOURS of meeting this morning.
so i have to find something to wear!
n seeing that most of my work clothes are somewhere else sent for ironing...
my options are VERY LIMITED!!!
Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

love? hate?

My love hate relationship with patience and positivity started early this year when I promised myself that ill try to master these traits.
However, it's bloody hard to do it when everything around you cries havoc.
It's taking all my strength and willpower (ade ke?) Not to scream and throw everything back on the floor.
Wish me luck!

merapu sebelum time tido...

when i came home today at around 9pm, i expected that my son would be asleep.
and yes he was, sleeping soundly in my bedroom, adorable tucked in his blue blankie bought by his Grandmama...
you see.. i personally feel as if it has been ages since i went back to my own home, my husband has been away since Sunday. and i have an unbelievably busy week ahead, hence the coming home late.
however, i was surprisingly calm.
i went about my business.
even had time to surf.
missed my hubby.
played with my son.
and got things ready.
i wonder, what did i do differently this time? how did i manage to be so calm?
(yes, i did express my uneasiness to my friends but i think i was still calm, no screaming... yet)
is it my PMS reaction, only total opposite from my normal reaction?
or have i finally matured?
erm... maybe not since i sung stupid songs at work...
or worse! have i gotten so stressed before that i am now insane???

and then! it hit me!

my newest purchase, Blackberry Bold 9700.

No people, it's not about the materiality of the item.

It's about how much simpler my life is... thanks to it.

Some may think i'm exaggerating this, but for me, this is true. thanks to their cheap unlimited data plan, i was able to be online 24/7, and since my bestie has a blackberry, we were able to chat constantly.
Who could believe this one small gadget has given me so much balance.
BB has forced my husband to be on Facebook (OMG finally)
BB gave me a way to share my life with my family and friends
BB gave me my bestie back.
BB is so user friendly that a buta IT person like me could easily maneuver around (also kudos to my bb tutorial lecturer, aishah (bukan nama sebenar)) inside joke, sila ignore...
BB has given me renewed hope in gadgets
BB reminds me of my every appointment.
BB has given me music, and video!
you know wat, i know my husband will be the first one to tell me that other phones do the same thing too... maybe. but not for me...

maybe it's the feeling of waiting... the anticipation and finally being able to have it. gives me the sense of fulfillment. gives me a glimmer of hope that maybe i'm not so messed up after all.

p/s: here i go kissing adam good nite and getting a shut eye of my own. it's not often that i get to feel this way, so i better cherish it before it's gone. Who knows, i mite be crazy tomorrow... TUNE IN to find out!

p/p/s: adie, nice to finally meet u! and also, gambar teddy tu cute, tapi it hardly counts as one entry! :p

My adorable niece...

This is what happens when you give a mini aquarium to Qeesh.
She is truly the fish whisperer!

=)

i'm sure any normal human being will have this song to relate to one way or another...

SMILE by the Glee Cast

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...

If you smile
With your pain and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through
If you just...

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...

That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

Tudungsss!

Thanks to Gadis2 MF for graciously modelling my items!!!

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Miss Khartena models! Mahal tuu... :D

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